Tonight, it’s snowing in Boston. I mean really, really snowing. Pouring down snow and this Florida girl is like a little kid seeing snow for the first time. I am probably the only girl in Boston that took a walk on Newbury Street tonight…just to walk in the snow. It’s so beautiful. And it makes me wonder if I could ever live in Boston.
Friday night someone bet that in 5 years I would be living in Boston. I spend quite a bit of time in Boston doing nursing research, due to an incredible opportunity I was offered 18 months ago. Every time I am up here, I wonder if I would ever be able to live here. I love this city…it’s amazing. But it is so different than any place I have ever lived and it is so very different than the life I live now. While I was walking in the snow having flight of ideas, I realized for the first time in my life, I really cannot imagine where I will be in five years. I spent the evening trying to get a glimpse of my future and I was simply unable to imagine it.
I really have no idea where I will be in five years and while this is incredibly scary, it is also thrilling. I do not have a plan anymore. For my ENTIRE life I have had a plan and suddenly I have surrendered my plan and am taking it one day at a time (although very few things I have "planned" have come to fruition...you'd think I would have learned by now). I love surprises and I am allowing everyday to be a surprise. I feel like I am finally living out Proverbs 3:5-6 “Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all yours ways acknowledge Him and He will direct your path.” This is a life verse for me…and it is also tattooed on my foot as a reminder to trust Him each day (thanks to my awesome tattoo artist sister!). I feel like I am slowly reaching the point where I trust Him. And I don't just trust Him for today; I am trusting Him for my future.
And the best part of this entire equation, is that although I have no idea where I will be, who I will be with, if I will be married, if I will be a mom, what I will be doing...I can be confident in one thing: things will be awesome, because nothing will top His plan for my life. Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you,” says the LORD, “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.”
Still I wonder, if I will know whether it is snowing in Boston in 5 years.
Snowflakes, knit caps, and surprises,
Just a few reflections about everything God is teaching me in this life...a journey deeper into His purpose for my life.